2021...30 years ago i actually never thought humanity would make it this far!
Time seems to be something of a continuum interrupted by human invention increments like years, months, days...etc.
We are in our eternity at all times!
Friday, February 12, 2021
Wednesday, December 16, 2020
The Next Chapter
As always I am nothing if not inconsistent. I always intended for this space to be a journal of sorts. But true to my nature; not so much! There is a lot to unpack in 2020. I had COVID...got past the initial issues and have tested negative. I need to do some research and figure what this actually means. My symptoms were essentially traditional flu-like; however, as I know...many people around the world adopt severe complications and die.
I was fortunate!
It is about two weeks till 2021
I generally know what I want the new year to look like but then again; i have no idea what is coming. I have written down what I need to do on a personal level in this space and fully intend to complete everything I expressed.
I now have a new reality in my life and I want this new reality to be more present in my everyday!
Things I intend and will do in the first 100 days of the new year:
- Finish requirements and schedule completion of my job related certification requirements
- Continue to physically get in better shape and reclaim what i let lapse and lost during cancer treatment
- Do morning breath work and meditation/prayer to start my day; everyday!
- Be less angry and just more focused
- Divest of all social media...no more twitter
- Drink alcohol only sporadically if at all; just a brain drain...don't need it
- Investigate acupuncture to deal with neuropathy
- Be there for &!^$@ (only I know what this means!)
Other things that are more frivolous but still serious to me:
- Win big in Draft Kings...obviously important to no one but me; but important nonetheless
- Find time to spend with &!^$@...will be difficult but is something we both need
- Write professionally
- Listen to more comedy and find comedians that I have never heard before
Sunday, August 9, 2020
Medical Equipment for the Under Served
During a recent visit to see my Ostomy nurse. I found out some information that has spurred an idea in my mind to set up a non-profit organization to assist the under insured. I was diagnosed with Stage 3 Colo-rectal cancer in Aug 2019. I have subsequently under gone chemotherapy, radiation, and surgery. After surgery; I've worn an illeostomy bag for the last 10 weeks. I am fortunate that my ostomy will be reversed; so, I will not need to order supplies long term. If this were not the case and my ostomy was permanent; I am equally fortunate to have insurance (military retiree) that would cover almost all cost associated with said equipment and or supplies.
My concern going forward are those people who have to face life with a bowel diversion without the resources to adequately supply or care for themselves. I recently found out about two volunteers that work out of a hospital near my home that operate a free Ostomy/Medical supply closet. The cancer center at this hospital allows the volunteers to use excess office space to store donated supplies. Once a week the volunteers are available for anyone to walk-in and obtain whatever supplies are available. This is currently the only location I'm aware that offers this type of service. The volunteers that helped me the other day told there is another hospital north of where I live that would like to set up a similar ability to help the under insured in their area.
I plan to work with the two volunteers I met to assist them with 1) spreading the word; and 2) organization and communication via the internet, and social media to more effectively advertise for the types of supplies that are sorely needed. After my surgery I knew I wanted to do something to help others and this effort looks like a great way to grow a desperately needed service in this and other communities in the state of Virginia.
My concern going forward are those people who have to face life with a bowel diversion without the resources to adequately supply or care for themselves. I recently found out about two volunteers that work out of a hospital near my home that operate a free Ostomy/Medical supply closet. The cancer center at this hospital allows the volunteers to use excess office space to store donated supplies. Once a week the volunteers are available for anyone to walk-in and obtain whatever supplies are available. This is currently the only location I'm aware that offers this type of service. The volunteers that helped me the other day told there is another hospital north of where I live that would like to set up a similar ability to help the under insured in their area.
I plan to work with the two volunteers I met to assist them with 1) spreading the word; and 2) organization and communication via the internet, and social media to more effectively advertise for the types of supplies that are sorely needed. After my surgery I knew I wanted to do something to help others and this effort looks like a great way to grow a desperately needed service in this and other communities in the state of Virginia.
Life Journey: Flipping the Page
This time last year I was returning from Australia. I knew something was wrong with me and I was hoping it wasn't cancer but in my heart I knew it was. My father had cancer; fought it 8 years and ultimately passed. I had symptoms that I was stubbornly ignoring. I was not in a good place mentally, spiritually or physically. I had let myself be dominated by alcohol and tobacco. Deluding myself that I was functional (sometimes highly so) and I just kept justifying bad habits.
I'm fortunate to be here and determined to get the most out of the rest of my time however long that is.
I know exactly what I need to do and it all about just doing it.
Everyday; something positive. Everyday accomplish something. Setting goals. Re-establishing my personal mission statement for how I conduct my life. Nothing sappy; just hard work. Time to get it.
Wednesday, August 5, 2020
Journey (Restart): Cancer Recovery and other Stuff
Different font; different style; different aim?
Almost one year to the day I was diagnosed with Colorectal Cancer; Stage 3; slight or indicated penetration through membranes. Potential incursion into lymph nodes in the area.
Not the best news! But, it is what it is or what it is was. Been through treatment; no cancer in post surgery pathology report. About to reverse my ostomy and start a process to exceed where I was pre-diagnosis.
What will that look like? I have ideas. Some I have written about in this space.
Today, all the ideas i have contemplated have new meaning or new drive to achieve or complete.
A person; so very dear to me has re-entered my life and have motivated something deep within...i felt was gone. A flame is being rekindled. Heat is building and it will not be extinguished.
Sunday, July 5, 2020
Diversion
Wanted to document this while it is on my mind. Doesn't have anything to do with what I have normally chosen to put in this space (i think).
About an hour ago I was watching CNN and they had a guest talking about the coronavirus. He said something that makes me think really hard about what we are dealing with. The guest said that medical science; i.e., biologist are just now starting to understand the effects of covid infection. Apparently, according to this guest...covid has shown signs of infecting multiple areas of the body; not just the respiratory track or lung function. Covid is showing up in the brain? It could be nothing but it could also mean you could have this virus hanging out in areas of the body figuring out how to interact with other cells. Mean time while covid is doing this; we don't even know we have covid. Asymptomatic. Yeah that word.
Covid could infect you and not manifest for a long time? We don't know. This is a brand new thing for science to investigate. This could take fucking years to fully understand. We are no where near anarchy in this country. Our version of the human race and particularly in America won't allow that to happen. Not because we are good or better than anyone.
Just the opposite. The pig-headed folk that make up the majority of this country; black, white, brown, yellow and white. Won't let anarchy come because come hell or high water; these folk will demand to carry on as usual and will shout as loud as they can that they are willing to take that risk. So America will stare this in the face and some will die and most will live but the retarded American consumption economy is the only thing that matters. Eventually because we will have gathered so much knowledge about covid we will have a vaccine and just like the flu industry now. We will have a new set of medications and an entire industry dedicated to COVID relief. Think of all those billions of dollars waiting to be had.
Fuck; if I'm #JoeBiden that is my fucking play right now. Covid is here and it is going no where. What can we do to live responsibly in that covid-19 reality? How can America use this to our advantage and stay strong and prosperous? First get fucking rid of this disaster of a human being #trump in this next election. To get America anywhere near where we need to be, we have to stop the fucking clown show now.
I was able to write something and I pulled it back. Is that right to do in this space? Stop yourself from venting? Won't do that again. Everything I think is worthy even if it is fucked up in the moment. You will at least acknowledge the stupidity and learn? (personal moment)
About an hour ago I was watching CNN and they had a guest talking about the coronavirus. He said something that makes me think really hard about what we are dealing with. The guest said that medical science; i.e., biologist are just now starting to understand the effects of covid infection. Apparently, according to this guest...covid has shown signs of infecting multiple areas of the body; not just the respiratory track or lung function. Covid is showing up in the brain? It could be nothing but it could also mean you could have this virus hanging out in areas of the body figuring out how to interact with other cells. Mean time while covid is doing this; we don't even know we have covid. Asymptomatic. Yeah that word.
Covid could infect you and not manifest for a long time? We don't know. This is a brand new thing for science to investigate. This could take fucking years to fully understand. We are no where near anarchy in this country. Our version of the human race and particularly in America won't allow that to happen. Not because we are good or better than anyone.
Just the opposite. The pig-headed folk that make up the majority of this country; black, white, brown, yellow and white. Won't let anarchy come because come hell or high water; these folk will demand to carry on as usual and will shout as loud as they can that they are willing to take that risk. So America will stare this in the face and some will die and most will live but the retarded American consumption economy is the only thing that matters. Eventually because we will have gathered so much knowledge about covid we will have a vaccine and just like the flu industry now. We will have a new set of medications and an entire industry dedicated to COVID relief. Think of all those billions of dollars waiting to be had.
Fuck; if I'm #JoeBiden that is my fucking play right now. Covid is here and it is going no where. What can we do to live responsibly in that covid-19 reality? How can America use this to our advantage and stay strong and prosperous? First get fucking rid of this disaster of a human being #trump in this next election. To get America anywhere near where we need to be, we have to stop the fucking clown show now.
I was able to write something and I pulled it back. Is that right to do in this space? Stop yourself from venting? Won't do that again. Everything I think is worthy even if it is fucked up in the moment. You will at least acknowledge the stupidity and learn? (personal moment)
Saturday, July 4, 2020
Journey: Day ???
???
The question is! Whatever you want it to be...our reality is so skewed right now. Speech in front of Mount Rushmore. Something should matter but what? This entire world order is a sham. No one knows what to do or what to recommend as the solution. I can think of one.
Studying how humans survived through the millenia. It has been documented that one way humans survived and continue to survive extinction is by biological diversity.
There is no one master race with a superior genome. Humanoids have to diversify to evolve. The earth around us will always change based on changes in the environment. Species that survive are never one strain; i.e, anglo/saxon or white or caucasian or whatever name you want to put to a particular race.
Humans survive through genetic diversification. Humans inter breed and get the best of all possible worlds in the process. That is the key to life and survival of our species.
Unfortunately; it is too late. People talk of "artificial" intelligence. What the fuck does that mean? What we have emerging is learned intelligence. It is genuine and real. Nothing artificial or abstract about it. Humans have created machines that can and have learned. Over many years these machines have and are learning and can discard what they perceive as the worst of us and move on.
It will happen one day! The AI/ML androids will absorb/accumulate the known canon of knowledge and will come to the conclusion that our version of humans can't exist.
The question is! Whatever you want it to be...our reality is so skewed right now. Speech in front of Mount Rushmore. Something should matter but what? This entire world order is a sham. No one knows what to do or what to recommend as the solution. I can think of one.
Studying how humans survived through the millenia. It has been documented that one way humans survived and continue to survive extinction is by biological diversity.
There is no one master race with a superior genome. Humanoids have to diversify to evolve. The earth around us will always change based on changes in the environment. Species that survive are never one strain; i.e, anglo/saxon or white or caucasian or whatever name you want to put to a particular race.
Humans survive through genetic diversification. Humans inter breed and get the best of all possible worlds in the process. That is the key to life and survival of our species.
Unfortunately; it is too late. People talk of "artificial" intelligence. What the fuck does that mean? What we have emerging is learned intelligence. It is genuine and real. Nothing artificial or abstract about it. Humans have created machines that can and have learned. Over many years these machines have and are learning and can discard what they perceive as the worst of us and move on.
It will happen one day! The AI/ML androids will absorb/accumulate the known canon of knowledge and will come to the conclusion that our version of humans can't exist.
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