One comment (or two) on Curren Events for Today - 7 Nov 2026

 MID TERMS

This is a joy and resolve like I haven't felt in a long time. 

The United States of America is not down for the count yet. So much more work to do but this generation seems up for it. The seats won in Congress, State Legislative bodies, Governorships etc is something not seen since I was 5 years old. 

Kansas elected a Democrat to the Senate. This man is a mega-church pastor. What does tell you about the absurd brand of Christianity that replubicans seem to endorse. All religion has a corrosive element (unfortunately) but it is telling that Kansans believe the highly touted "Trump is our Saviour" sect are complete and total RETARDS. 

I was born in Kansas City, Mo and graduated high school in 1987 in Kansas City, Ks. 

People in the middle of the country tolerate a lot of shit One thing that is not allowed is a complete total retard and his loyal followers to just viciously destroy America at home and around the world. We have all vested too much of our people's blood and treasure for this retarded, racists, bigoted class of humans to take us all down. 

I have always been proud of America because despite the politics I've seen for my whole adult life...There is good in America. It is increasingly difficult to find. You have to sift through so much bullshit to access the good in America and life in general at times.

I'm reading through a magazine (like a real paper one) called the Skeptical Inquirer, May/June 2026 edition. 

BULLSHIT

This article discusses the fight we all have to wage every day against the lies, factual distortions, conspiracy and just endless non sensical opinions from people, no one should ever have to listen to. People are taking online, twitter, discord, reddit and any other medium you want and growing bolder everyday and every hour it seems. 

No one has much time to care about lying at all. It's not just mistakes or anything remotely accidental. Media and I mean everyone and everything is engineered to keep the BULLSHIT at 100% peak. 

Brandolini's Law - (Brandolini 2013) An Italian programmer made this statement. "The amount of energy needed to refute bullshit is an order of magnitude bigger than to produce it."

This 2026 mid-term is clearly a start but the work just get's going. The young, professional and educated wing of this new Congress needs to take charge and get Schumer out at a minimum. Jeffries might be hard to oust but I understand why people want him out. 

I am more concerned that Congressman not on Judiciary Committee's will be talking shit out of turn and fuck of the impeachments that are necessary to hold people truly accountable. 

We do not have any more time for any more BULLSHIT from anyone in Congress. 

Get the fucking work done that is require. 

Immediately take away stock trading privileges and the rest of the republicans would leave as soon as they could. 

Do it if you CARE. 

C.A.R.E. 7 Nov 2026 - CLEAR - HEADENESS

  The word of the day from the C.A.R.E model is - CLEAR - HEADENESS

Gratitude for the opportunity ahead and the continued grace we all receive every day the Sun rises. 

I didn't know what word to choose. I want to do this every day and I do in some respects; it just hasn't translated to me writing every day. I believe I am coming into a zone where it will be more possible to do this and be free of distractions. 

Having a clear head is obvious as a positive attribute associated with caring for yourself and for everyone around you. 

Methods used to obtain what you view as clear headed are varied. I went down a road where I was convinced that at times, alcohol was helpful. The retarded nature of how anyone can think that is embarrassing. I just never really took it seriously until I could no longer control it. Being clear headed is about finding that thing; [whatever it is] that allows you to have mental clarity and to think critically without too much effort. 

This leads to right action, when you have the opportunity to identify, assess and then talk or act or move or do anything impactful to not only yourself but to others around you. 

Not going to belabor this. 

Prayer/Meditation is my method along with deep breathing. Writing in this space clears a lot of nonsense brewing in my brain. 

Random Thoughts 26 Oct 2026

 Nothing in particular to say; just haven't written about life in general society. 

I'm exhausted of all the politics. Getting the right people in the existing institutions responsible to execute the laws of the nation is a solemn responsibility. 

In 2026, this feels grave. I can see how despite all of the evidence that this is the one time in all of American history for everyone to resoundingly vote Democrat...many will still stick to the old idea that this Trump regime and disease will pass and that somehow voting for these individual republican House people is still okay. 

Democratic Party voters will be so let down. 

The independents only show up 6 months prior to every election; to siphon off votes (from Republicans mainly) but so many more Independents would vote Democrat if these Independents would just sit this one out for once and maybe twice **(2028 if we make it)

I feel like I'm on an island in some ways due to my own personal circumstances. I am in a career transition. Self inflicted, resignation and just my own bad choices. 

As I watch the run up to the mid term elections; I just have no sense for how people actually think. I don't interact with anyone anymore. I have my own sense of what is right and wrong. 

Many external influences but mainly the Christian faith and teachings are what underpin me. But I will say that I was reading Greek and Norse mythology and the Narnia Chronicles all around the same time.  In order of influence it was a tie. I was introduced to Christianity at roughly the same time I was reading the mythology and Narnia. No, actually when the animated Hobbit was on TV, that sparked my interest in all the Fantasy genre. 

There was no one I knew as a young black kid that was into Fantasy books and reading in general to be honest.  This is why I have felt so alone all my life. It's like...I don't know what to write for now. It's early in the day but I have this stream that I can't communicate to anyone else, except this computer

The parable nature of the Bulfinch myth writing; definitely shaped my outlook. I also read a lot of 4th to 5th grade level writing on the American Indians. I was fascinated by the transition to manhood rituals of the various tribes. Libraries in public schools in the 1970s had books that included graphic physical descriptions and sometimes, illustrations. 

I don't know where I am going with this but I'm writing and that for me is the whole point.

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C.A.R.E 25 Oct 2026 - BENEVOLENCE

 The word of the day from the C.A.R.E model is - BENEVOLENCE

Gratitude for this day and opportunity to heal, grow and move forward. 

Benevolence at its core is the desire and willingness to do good. So right out the gate as I type this the word to start the description is desire; meaning deep need to fulfill a hole or gap. Next is willingness to do whatever is necessary to get to a state where a benevolent spirit and outlook allows the final step to "do" good. 

I have all that now and these 3 elements of benevolence are what can guide me today. 

I decided to approach this differently to increase my chances of actually writing everyday. 

I will edit as I go with a final review at night when I would have otherwise been watching TV or some other useless activity. 

This will give me time to order my day in a sequence and be more purposeful with everything else around me. 

Round 2: I can now blame my inconsistent writing/journaling on my new puppy, OTIS. 

I'll post a picture soon once I get them all in one album

There is nothing I want more than to act benevolent in every way. Not backing down but just with the maximum intent to do good. Act on the 3 elements of benevolence to actively C.A.R.E. 

C.A.R.E 17 Oct 2026 - CONSISTENCY

 The word from the C.A.R.E. model is - CONSISTENCY

  Gratitude for continuing to increase my understanding of myself. 

I've had some success and some struggles recently. Most of this is chalked up to lack of consistency. 

I'm writing off my own experiences and not citing sources purposely. If I ever collect this into a book I will appropriately review and cite sources where it makes sense and legally. 

Consistency in the context of recovery is maintaining sobriety. Period. When I don't have that then all the other positive momentum is stifled and retarded. 

Even the execution or lack of execution of sticking to some level of consistency with writing is a challenge. I don't really have an excuse. I am busy (somewhat) but not enough to justify the lack of writing on more consistent basis. 

Every other intent for me suffers when I don't (intentionally) write what I am dealing with. 

I lack emotional control and part of having some level of temperance is tied to consistency with writing and physically working out at a more then medium level. 

I mentioned at some point I would document my physical progress and I am ready to make that commitment. 

Started today. 

Body Weight Dips - 15

Push Ups - 100

Body Weight Squats = 0

Honesty Plus consistency. I want to see where I am physically next year this time with those same exercises. 

C.A.R.E.

Random Thoughts - Partial C.A.R.E

 The last post was heavy!. 

Necessary!

I'm not choosing a word of the day. 

I'm reflecting on why I did not continue on 19 September 2026.

I had a word selected. 

RESPONSIBILITY

I had my post in my mind but realized there is no way for me to write about this now. 

I have been the most irresponsible human.

I know right but have consistently chosen wrong!

I have no right to talk about the sacred word that is RESPONSIBILITY. 

If you think about the word and break it down, specifically or abstractly; you will find that we as people are so lacking that there is no wonder all the strife and racism, etc...

I don't know what else to say. If you are or consider yourself educated and somewhat aware, then you know and understand how difficult it is to talk about responsibility when and if you have failed. 

RESPONSIBILITY is the one thing that I failed at miserably and completely. 

Small moments of caring are not enough to erase the years of neglect that I inflicted on others. 

Not giving up; just owning up. 

 C.A.R.E 18 Sep 2026 - AUTHENTICITY

  The word from the C.A.R.E model is AUTHENTICITY

Gratitude that I have this time right now to focus on maintaining the right mind, body and spirit to make a positive impact in the lives of the ones I love. 

The words that come to mind often are not words that I know will give me energy, hype and motivation but words like authentic, that make me look at who I am actually not. 

I had a therapy session that is part of my road back to being able to drive again. This particular therapist, like many, end up saying something that really gets you. I finally, after all these years, reckoned with the singular moment that changed my life and took me down the road of life where I ended up today. 

I have managed to live a life that has not been truly 100% authentic to who I am. 

No, I am not gay nor have some hidden tendency to the feminine that I am suppressing. 

I have just never reckoned with the intense anger and pressure I have been under since July 1987. When I learned that there was virtually no way to salvage my ability to go attempt to play college football I imploded and exploded at the same time. 

There is an intensely crushing feeling you get when you know something significant is being taken away from you. When my great grandfather passed, I was walking into my house after football practice, and I remember being at the front door and hearing the phone ringing. I walked towards the phone and just had a sensation. I answered the phone and it was my grandmother. All she said was my name and I knew and it was over.  I want to believe that I said, "I know" and we cried. My great grandfather and I share a birthday; 12 February. His was 12 Feb 1895 and mine is 12 Feb 1969. Ezekiel Johnson Sr. died at age 91. 

I had the exact feeling when I knew that events complely outside of my control were leading me to a completely unknown life. 

I lived with that for 37 years! I've had stretches of my life where I accepted the outcome, but not really. I just don't really know what it means to be authentic and honest sometimes. I'm not heinous about it. I think I am loyal and trustworthy (when sober) but I just need to figure out how to finally let go of the anger. 

I just always let my anger over those past events dictate how I responded to pressure at home mostly. But home is where it matters and I failed at this so often. 

Progress is happening. It is getting close because I can see evidence of the change now that I have reflected on most of my life. Following this blogging/journaling helps more than anything. 

AUTHENTIC is what I want to be and be courageous about attacking it. 

You can't C.A.R.E if you're not authentic.